Apr 30

Apr 30 Heal Childhood Trauma

When I think of myself as a child and the dynamics that played out in our home. I remember I use to spend hours hiding from my mother under the house! (Queensland homes were built on little stilts.)

And no we weren’t playing hide and seek!

I was terrified of her cruelness and lion taming ability with an electric cord…me playing the part of the cowardly lion…

As I grew up I went hiding from her to spend hours at the pool, a place I loved and adored and had so much fun and play there that I still dream of it.

So each day I would go from living in fear to having the most amazing fun and freedom.

I lived daily feeling our home was a desperately unhappy and confusing place to be. And that happiness was short lived and existed outside of there.

It also began a pattern of living in homes that always had something that blew it apart. As much as I longed for a happy, safe home I had no idea how to live except be defensive, afraid and wary of others.

So for many years my relationships with family and friends consisted of me living with heightened senses to others, shouting and yelling (lion) pushing others away or cutting off completely, meanness and cruelty and many, many tears.

Even after I got married and had my longed for daughter my behaviour continued and to my horror I did this with her as well.

I tried desperately to live appearing to others that I had a marvellous, happy successful life and all was well however inside the guilt and desperation to not be my mother eventually made me so ill I was bedridden for a year.

This was my turning point..I could do nothing..I was completely spent

I was scared that I would die and my daughter would have no mother ( like me)

However the most amazing thing happened..

As I lay in my hospital bed staring at the mountains in the distance where my daughter was… I had this incredible knowing inside

I would live…and I knew I would be different as I was given another chance to live my life my way.

I turned to mediation and healing as I literally had no energy for anything else.

I knew for it to be different for me and my daughter I had to change

I had absolutely no idea how but meditation was the start. To simply lie in the darkness, surrender to the horrors of the past, to grieve, to release I began to change.

My explosive behaviours, my anger, distress, mental angst, helplessness began to heal.

I took responsibility for my behaviour, my emotions and began to have a relationship with my daughter and others that I felt an ease with. I could breathe. I could relax with them. I could listen without judgement. I was no longer judging them, wary of them, afraid they didn’t like or love me.

If you can relate to this I want to reassure you it can be different.

It all begins with you deciding the person you want to be.

Then have a damn good reasons for committing to the process and journey of healing.

These were mine

I wanted to be free of my emotions that caused immense pain for me and my daughter
I wanted close loving relationships with my parents and brother and his family
I wanted friendships that lasted and felt easy
I wanted to be proud of myself that I had overcome my past and become myself..a person I loved and respected
I wanted to be free of judgement
I wanted to be the best mother I could
Also I was working as a healer by this time so to be completely clear and emotion free was a priority for working with others

Keep it simple

Healing begins with understanding it all began in the past! That every thought, feeling, beliefs stems from something that happened to you and is triggering you like a knife in the side.

Once you know that, you have control over who you are now..

You can begin to heal your past.

It’s not about understanding, working out why it is..

It is about being free of the feeling, the emotion, the thoughts, the behaviours that set off the alarm bells ringing and BOOM react mode.

Mediation…healing reduces the feeling…you are no longer fighting it, expressing it..you simply watching it rise and go like clouds in the sky.

Use my Blowing a Kiss remedy every day to help you be free of those feelings and thoughts.

Healing is the answer to having the relationships you love

As you know..after 16 years of working with clients globally! I am passionate and have a 100% strong belief in the power of Healing.

I find that I try things myself before recommending so yes I’ve done, do healing with myself.

The fastest way
The easiest way
The results driven way
The simplest.
Natural.
Unobtrusive.
Painless way

To change the way you Think. Act. Feel. The way you are.

Is Healing Hands down the best?

You can specifically heal those painful childhood memories that keep you in unhealthy relationships with friends and family.

Where the way you relate to each other has continued for years, generations and the same behaviours are so ingrained you accept pain as normal.

We’ll be healing the patterns you learnt as a child.
We’ll be healing your current relationships.
We’ll be setting you free to be clear, responsible for you and able to act on your behalf in ways you are proud of.

I am living proof the you can do this.

Nothing can stop you from becoming the person you are proud to be.

It doesn’t have to be a long drawn out, painful process.

It can be the most rewarding thing you have ever said yes to, committed to in your life.

With love, Ruth x

Happiness Healing